Letter 5: Change in Perspective

I’ve written a few blog posts about how I’m not enjoying the structure of my 9-5 job anymore and want to discover my passions and pursue these. If you’ve read these you may have noticed that they can be quite negative when I’m talking about my job (even though I don’t hate my job, I’m just not passionate about it).

After a bit of time I’ve come to realise that I should enjoy my job, I should enjoy the self-discovering journey that it is allowing me to go on. Without my job, I would have more time to pursue my passions, but I’d also have no money – which isn’t an option right now.

I’ve come to the realisation that my job is a positive thing, it is supplying me with money and the skills I need to pursue my passions in my own time – it is actively helping towards achieving my dream life, and that is something to be thankful for.

Since coming to this realisation I’ve started to enjoy life a bit more, the weight on my shoulders has decreased. Looking at the positives of situations is not always doable, but I’m trying to do so wherever and whenever I can. Life is a journey and without having my job, I wouldn’t be on the path I am now – so I am very grateful to have it.

I think we can try to be more thankful for the journey we are on right now, even if it isn’t perfect.

What is something you need to be more thankful for?

The beginning

A recent first class graduate from University, two weeks after completing my exams I bagged myself a job. I was ecstatic and keen to get onto the job ladder to begin my career. With an ok starting salary and a chance to work in an organisation where I could ‘work my way up’ I couldn’t have been happier. This honeymoon period lasted approximately 4 months, until the reality of working a 9-5 job truly sunk in.

Getting the train into work every morning with all the other miserable commuters, it got me thinking. Is this what I want my life to be? Do I want to work from 9-5 at an office every day? Do I want to compete with other employees for days off work? Do I want to dread waking up early every morning to do the same commute again? The answer is no.

Don’t get me wrong, there is absolutely nothing wrong with a 9-5 job, but the reality of working in one has made me realise that actually, it might not be for me. There are also times where I am enjoying my work, but it seems to be few and far between as the months go on. If I’m starting to feel this way now, how am I going to feel years down the line when this is the only thing I’ve done with my time? I resent spending the majority of my time away from family in an office block and then being too exhausted to spend any real quality time with anyone or spend time doing things I love.

I’ve come to the realisation that if I don’t want my life to be spent in an office, I need to decide what it’s going to be and make that change. On this blog, I’m going to document my own creative journey. I want to discover what I love doing, what I would wake up early for and spend all day doing, what would make me excited to wake up – something that won’t make me go to bed with dread.

So join me on my journey of self discovery! Lets see where this thing takes me…